7 hours sleep.
the party outside is still going.
despite my hatred for them in my sleep deprived state, i am jealous and just a little bit proud.
(i will hop myself up on coffee for today. how hard can it be?)
by body listens in a state of anticipation
the worst thing is i'm not sure what for
and so i am surprised by every noise and reaction
irritated by events, patience thawed.
where is the lonely?
i know it's in my body but I can't find where.
It's lost between blood and organs and bile.
Playing a game of hide and seek with me
Hiding from healing, stronger hands.
It grates against the part that creates speech
and makes me stup